Day 11

I hope that for the year 2009, I get all randoms, stalkers, pervs, and any of which that pertain to the forementioned off my fucking jock. Looking back, senior year's been mad crazy, though. I tried avoiding drama, but of course, I didn't. Drama follows me, bluhhhhd, fuck. The amount and severity of the drama though isn't as nearly as plentiful as last year's, but nevertheless, I want to be drama free at ALL times! AND THE GUYS x__X. "Remember you had 8 at the same time?!" Uhhh, too bad I didn't like any of them at all! All the bad guys like me, I swear. They are not for me. And I hella remember telling people, "Fuck it, I'm just going to be lesbian," just because all the guys were too much to handle. For the guys I did like and who liked me back... which is like 2? They're horrible fucking people who I don't even fucking talk to anymore! So:

Dear 2009,
This year, I do not any weird people liking me because I will ultimately have to subtly hint that I am not interested in them. I must keep it subtle because I do not want them to get hurt... but then sometimes it is TOO subtle that they don't see my hints, and they keep trying with their weird ways. SO, please, just keep all guys of the 'type' that I mentioned before, outside a 50 foot radius in order for me to sleep well at night because I swear it really makes me sad to have to tell people no or that it's just never ever going to happen. KTHX. Also, Eunice and Kevin said to jump with money in my pockets on New Year's in order to ensure growth and wealth. Please let that be true because I will be very broke with my cotillion, prom(s), and possibly another winterball coming up. Oh and I haven't grown since like 7th grade so maybe I could use a few inches since I am vertically challenged. :( Oh and, I want to lose like 15 pounds! =) That way, I'll be cuuuute, lmao, jk. But really, I want to lose weight even though Ejay says I'm fine just the way I am and that I'd be ugly if I were to become skinny. That was reallyyyy nice of him. =) He's probably one of the only people who genuinely means what he says about that certain topic. I miss him! He and BJ make 6th period hella fucking fun, omgosh, "SHMELL LYKE BAHBOY!" <3 Okay and uhm, 2009 = HIGHER thant a 4.0. I hella want to, and I probably can, since I have 2 classes that are weighted. Oh and I hope I have a very awesome debut and that my actual 18 bithday is on and poppin'. CLUBBING?! Haha. Jordan said it's not fun unless you're drunk, which I kind of figured, so by allllll means, let's pawwwwrttyyyyy, haha, jk... kinda(; Oh and for 2009 I want more cute clothes, more people who I can depend on, and uhm, safety and good health. HOORAY! :)

Yours Truly,
Cristina mothafuckin' Lacson

Okayyyyyyy, ANYWAYS! This all seems random, but it was what I was thinking of last night when I couldn't sleep AT ALL. I must've slept at 3 in the morning. I even told Jordan that I feel like I'm going to go to hell for hurting all these guys. But, who am I to force myself into liking someone and compensate my entire happiness? That's just the way the cookie crumbles. If anything, be my friend, and you never know what can happen in the future. Jordan and I talked for more than a WHOLE YEAR before going out. I like it that way. Someone needs to get to know the REAL me before even trynna do shit with me because I'll guarantee you, there's a lot about me that doesn't meet the eye. I like to compare myself to Shrek because I'm green, big, and ugly! Okay, just kidding. BUT, he said to the donkey "I'm like an onion. I have lots of layers," which is like me! I don't know. It takes me awhile to be REALLY comfortable with someone and after that I will be able to trust that person until they give me a reason not to. So yeah, blegh. I hope I can sleep better tonight. I should be pretty tired after the game. I'm going to meet Jordan at BART, and we're going together. Good thing, too because my sister and her boyfriend are going, and I'm tired of third wheeling. Of course, they can't sit in row 2 with me and Jordan because his dad could only get 2 great seats! Yuuup, THE Paul Wong, for ya! You can even Google him, right Kev?! LOL! The "We Believe" movement starter person. He cooked me food at his Hawaiian Drive Inn restaurant once, haha. He's nice. :)

And if you read all of this, damn, you must've read a wholeee lot!