Remarkable.

I'm not going to blog about my day's event like I usually do. I'm just going to talk about how a certain converstaion with a significant other sparked my interest and stuck out.

So, in first period, I was talking to Eunice and gave me the idea to dye my hair, since I've never done it before. We had come to the conclusion to a reddish-brown and that she'd do it for me sometime at her house. I had my mind set on it. It was change. Change could be good for me. I'm going through so many changes now anyways. Why not one more? I was talking to Trina about it in 6th period today and asked a very close male friend of mine if he thought I should dye my hair, too, since he was right next to us. He said no. I asked why. He said it wasn't like me to do that, that I was more of the "plain-jane, girl-next-door," "subtle" type and not like "the loud bitches who dye their hair." I knew the type he was referring to. Everyone and their mommas bleach and dye their hair nowadays. It was just nice to know that a guy could actually want someone who wasn't like everyone else, who could appreciate me for me and I guess what you can call "natural beauty." He also said that I looked cute today, and he always seems to say it on my grimiest days. So, I finally asked him today, "Wth, I'm wearing a freaking Northface jacket and jeans... how is that cute?" And he replied, "It doesn't matter what a girl wears. A girl can still be cute. Your hair is nice." And I really thought to myself... wow. How many guys actually have a mentality like that? How many guys would find me attractive if I dressed mismatched in raggedy clothes, had yellow hair, wore geeky glasses? It's a breath of fresh air to know that some of humankind isn't all shallow and absent-minded like I thought. Someone who finds me cute when I'm looking a hot mess, tore up from the floor up. Someone who finds my hair nice when I brush it ten minutes before the bell rings for class in my car. Who would've thought.

And I'm sure you guys are thinking that being a girl-next-door type thing isn't necessarily a compliment, but for me, I think it is. It's not like it means that I'm an ordinary girl that you can find someone off the street just like me. It's more of a simplistic person with well, simple desires and ways of life. I'd rather by the plain-jane everyone likes me as now then be like all the other girls out in the open, flaunting anything and everything. I think everyone looks like they're growing up too fast. Juniors look like they're 20, you can find them in clubs. Everyone wants to grow up and there's no preservation of youth anymore. Is it really necessary for me to dye my hair at 17? I know I have this good-girl thing image going me, and everyone is surprised that I've drank before, recently hookah-ed, etc. I guess for the most part, I am a good girl. I believe in rules, I get good grades, but I do break rules once in a while. I guess I'm a good girl with a dash of bad. But, everyone likes it that way. I like it that way. Earlier I said change is good, but I guess being the girl-next-door, plain-jane, good girl image is something I'm not willing to give up just yet, or anytime soon.

I'm not dying my hair anymore.

Quick blog.

Lacs0n x Lacs0ff (7:40:17 PM): if someone i don't know
Lacs0n x Lacs0ff (7:40:21 PM): is folllowing me on twitter
Lacs0n x Lacs0ff (7:40:26 PM): should i block that person
shortypinoyx27 (7:40:29 PM): yea
shortypinoyx27 (7:40:31 PM): because that is called
shortypinoyx27 (7:40:33 PM): being a stalker
Lacs0n x Lacs0ff (7:40:42 PM): LOL

LMFAO! Dude, tell me why, I'm getting random adds left and right! From facebook, to MySpace, NOW TWITTER?! And, they're allllllll guys! How do these people find me? Sorry, I don't accept.

School
-School's good. I got a shitload of work off my back last week, which lead to me having a weekend filled with fun. Both Westmoor advisors and SFSU undergraduate department said that my "UNCONDITIONALLY EXEMPT" EAP from junior year will completely override my slightly below par score for EPT. HELL YESSS! I must say, my teachers who knew about it showed great concern and told me to "fight for my spot." I guess people really do believe in me to do well, that I really have the intelligence to make it far. I was pretty happy about that. My grades are good, minus the recently failed AP stats test THAT I WILL MAKE UP FOR. Mmm, getting mine mine mine mine MIIIIIIIIINE!

Weekend
-Weekend was cool. I cancelled cotillion practice because everyone had their own thing to do. Cotillion practices for Marjo Friday night and this morning. Finished waltz and did hip hop. It was hard at first, but it's not so bad now. I went to Jamally's, and hung out with the people there. Jamally was hella happy I came! He stood up, and gave me a big fat hug! :) HELLA SENIORSSSSSSSSSS. I came a bit late, so I missed like Pat Prado and others who I were looking foward to seeing! -__- Volleyball and Jack in the Crack with my girlssss! Hookah later with some people who was doing it like PROS, shiiiit! I was like, MY BAD cuuuuuz I really fucking asked how to do it! It was cool though, hanging out with everyone this weekend. There were sooooooo many parties/tellies this week! Everyone and their moms had birthdays yesterday! Anyways, for the rest of the night, AU PAIR!, homework, and laundry.


Upcoming
-The usual: school. Volleyball at lunch for my team on Tuesday. I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO WATCH. If we win Tuesday's game, we automatically make it to top 4 with the best record! :) Planning to get my cotillion court in check, finalized. DJ was finalized. Invitations to be done very soon, and I'm going to do all thissssss cotillion stressful stuff, no matter what happens.

Laaaaate.

-___- x 987654321^1E99

Chopped it up with the SLICE crew in engrrish this morning. WELCOME BACK, STEVIE! They all want me to go clubbing with them and stuff, but I already told them that I want to wait until I'm 18 because it'll be a better experience since I actually waited and stuff. I could totally get away with clubbing now by using my sister's ID or something, but I'd rather not. But however, my girls and the neeeggas are all going clubbing for sure when I'm 18, along with the many piercings I want and the possible thought of a tattoo. ANYWAYS, after that, AP stats. MY NOSE BLED, and I think I put my whole class in shock. Nose bleeds 2 days in a row. I don't want to tell my parents because they'll just worry. They'll think I have anemia (knock on wood, seriously) since I'm losing so much blood. Econ was probably the highlight of my day. We got nothing done except extend the date of the term paper to one more day. I finished my basket in ceramics with the help of Patrick Kuan and Marjo. I kept score at lunch for volleyball and was hella laughing at Said's team with Dio and Stevie and them with me. Okay, THAT, might be the highlight of my day.. but anyways, almost fell asleep in psychology again! Dude, whatever movie we're watching is so no intriguing like the movies usually are. Let's hope I'm not in the sochratic seminar because I really don't know what the movie's about now. Forensics was boring, even though I volunteered myself to answer questions on the board since EJB was teacher for the dayyyyyy! After school, I went to Westlake library to get some books on fiscal/monetary policies for my econ term paper. Why on earth are guys so immature these days? They were so loud in the library, trying to get my attention. "Go ask her! She looks mad..." And they asked if I wanted chocolate... I really wanted to yell at them because it was so pointless. I didn't even find any books at Westlake, so I went to the Serramont library at Gellert. The guys weren't as obnoxious there. It was probably because they were either my age or a bit older. It was so funny because he practically followed me to where I was getting my books, pretending he was looking for a book himself, and it was so obvious he wasn't! HAHA. Went home afterwards. I got the letter of death, telling me I might not be ready for freshman level English in college. I asked Kevin, the genius, and he wasn't ready either, which obviously tells me that the planets aren't aligned are we are subjected into some twisted conspiracy. Coming from an AP english course and and honors english course right now? SERIOUSLY, dude?! I've had advanced english classes my whole entire fucking life, dude. I'm talking to the counselors and Mrs. Grandfield tomorrow becuase I know they'd beg to differ as well. And on top of that, I took the EAP last year, passed it, put that in my college app, so that should've exempted me from the EPT altogether, guaranteeing my placement in freshman english. SO PUHLEASE, get your shit straiiiiiiight, people! I already called SFSU, and left them a message. I'm gonna blow up their phone with my complaints until I get some answers, damnit!

That really did make me pretty emo for a bit. That's honestly fucking up with my entire future. It made me look up other colleges as my back up plan. If SFSU/CSUEB puts me in some remedial english, I'm going to do CCSF for however long it takes, then transferring to either Davis or Irvine because they have good nursing programs there. Hopefully, CSUEB goes on a different rubric/cutoff, enabling me to be in freshman english with or without my EAP, that way I still am in a school where there is a good nursing program, and I'm away from home, yet, not too far. It still makes me sad, and I'm trying not to think about it. I feel like I got a rude ass awakening, and my life is taking such unexpected turns. I feel like I thought I was so great and going such big places and maybe I'm not. All I can do is hope for this one. My future's on the line.

ANTM + Real World tonight with forensics, econ, and english. -__- I HAVE SO MANY BOOKS WITH ME, OMGOSHHHHHHHH! X__X Toodles, guys!

Such a bad girl, a baaad girl.

Slept in all of engrrish this morning, did the activity in AP stats with the M&Ms that I ended up giving Eunice since I gave chocolate up for Lent, and I never really liked the peanut M&Ms, 400pt pop quiz in econ and I straight up aced that shit, tried making my basket in ceramics but it looks like shit so I might start over tomorrow. I went home right after ceramics, and I really am amazed at how it's so easy to go to school or to get out of school whenever I please. I'll come late, leave early, or go to my car during passing periods/lunch (when you're not supposed to), and I never ever get caught --knock on wood. Skipping 5th and 6th never felt so good in my life, and that's all I'm going to say about that. However, EJ Brauner said I have quite a lot of work to catch up on for missing class today (just my luck), so damnit. I hope I didn't miss too much in psych either, but fuck, I deserved to go home early, and this is probably the most rebellious thing I have ever done in my life school-wise... actually, no, not even school-wise, like... just in life in general. I'm starting to realize how much of a pussy I am when it comes to certain things. I need to step up and grow up, and I am, I will. No, really --mark my words.

I'll be blogging less because I've found my new addiction: TWITTER. I only have like, 5 "followers." (I'm still waiting for Mr. Summer Breeze to follow my ass! HAHA, jk... kinda!) It basically says my day within a few sentences, or I'll even put some random thoughts up on it, too. So, just check my MySpace or twitter.com/lacsonbaaaby, and you'll be sure to be up to date with my monotonous life.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. We watched that movie in psych and finished it sometime last week. For some reason, I find myself thinking about it time to time. Maybe it's because that at this point in time, a part of me wants to erase certain memories so I can start over, like in the movie. Wouldn't that be crazy though? If science were able to advance themselves and erase certain people's memories that they wouldn't want to remember? Shit, if that was humanly possible, do you know how many people would line up to do that procedure? People who want to get over break-ups, deaths, any memory that brings them pain. The food for thought in class was something like, "Would you erase memories if you could?" At first response, everyone was totally for it, then I guess after really thinking about it, people said no. Erase your memories, and you'd be living in a world of ignorance, and I suppose ignorance can really be bliss in that case. Not erase your memories, and you'd be able to relive your pain for possibly every second of the day. But, I think the main argument was that, you wouldn't know what good was if you never experience the bad. And to add on that defense, I feel like bad memories are part of a learning experience and a chance to grow as a person, something not killing you to making you stronger. With a new start for every person as each day comes, make new memories, don't reminsce too much, and there are always postive outcomes to every negative situation. You guys, watch that movie if you haven't. It's totally good.

Homework time and back to square one.

It's sooo cold!

Engrrish we finished Hamlet, even though I was paying attention more to my AP stats book in the dark with my cellphone as the light source, ha. I studied for the whole period, but it did not do me any good! The test was murder. The multiple choice was like 4 pages and hard as fuck. I skipped that and went straight to free response which was okay, but there just wasn't enough time for everything! I honestly don't recall a time I've ever felt like such a failure! :( Oh well.. econ was more about Ferrari's life. I got a 1 on my class sample, so I'm retaking it sometime afterschool. I also got a 60/80 on my chapter 9 test. Me and Pat Prado got the highest scores, hah. In ceramics, I filled me rubric out for my starfishy, then left early to set up for volleyball. LOL, since Harry's team was hella MIA, it ended up being Harry, Andy Moore, Joseph, EJ, Jeremy, and Kevin Cruz. HELLA FUNNY playing them, dude! Of course, my girls and I won 25-11. It was a really enjoyable gameee(= Psych afterwards and I knocked the fuck out pretty much. I always get sleepy after playing volleyball. Forensics, dilligently did my bookwork with EJ Brauner next to me because I don't know my other 2 groupmates, still have to finish it later. Afterschool was cotty make-ups. Thank you to everyone who showed up! Special thanks to Dillon, who didn't go to school today, for coming and teaching the guys! :) I have a wonderful court..

Cotty's getting a little more stressful as each day goes by. Someone remind me to call my DJ to get a copy of our contract? My mom's gonna kill me. Tomorrow will be four more months 'til my cotty, oh-my-fucking-gosh.

Homework:
-AP stats bookwork? (not sure if there is any)
-Econ term paper
-Forensics pictures, notes on reproductive system

And of course, the Monday line up of TV! YAY!! I might read Twilight later, too! :)

FOR MY COURT

**REVISION**
Cotillion practice this Saturday at 1:30
As of now, it's at my house because weather.com changed its forecast again. It says sunny for Saturday!
I might be a little late since Marjo's practice ends at 1:30, so if anything, just knock on the door, and my family will let you in. I will be home shortly. Marjo really lives like 5 minutes away.
PLEASE DO NOT BE LATE. Lots of review will have to be done, I know.

Call if anything. Thanks, guys! I love you! =)

SCRAPED!

I couldn't help but fall asleep in first period when I could barely see/hear Hamlet with that itty bitty TV screen in the corner. I mean, I think MY TV is even bigger than that. I didn't appreciate Mr. Speranza's insults to Grandfield's honors class.. although, he was right. -___- WHATEVER, SENIORITIS IS FULL BLOWN FOR MOST OF US AT THIS POINT. Can you honestly blame us? People even talk about just dropping out of school now and not waiting for graduation or even just getting a GED. Anyways, after doing all that work in AP stats, Anna and I went to our cars because we both forgot things of ours. Then we went to econ. We did a pop quiz, which reminds me that I have to SELF-TEACH myself when and where the demand/supply curves shift, or remain the same, because the class sample is on Friday. I know we have 5 times to pass it, but of course I'd like to pass it on the first try. I guess this is what happens when you sit in a corner full of guys who ask Mr. Ferrari a million questions to start him off on tangents and never getting any work done. I think I've self-taught myself everything in that class. Ugh, whatevs! I got my pun bank in ceramics. It's not the cutest thing in the world, but it's something! HAHA. I sanded my project then left early with Sammy to set up the net for volleyball at lunch. I HAD NO IDEA WE HAD SPECIAL ED P.E. x__x Sam and I walked in the midst of that, uhm 'special' class, and that was not a good experience. I'll leave it at that. So, we decided to visit Mr. Brady while we waited for the PE class in the small gym to finish so we could set up. We set up half of it until the other girls on the vars came who weren't playing today, who then finished while the gils on my team got dressed. By the time we got out, hella people were already watching, and I saw the guys... LOL! They couldn't be serious. Playing them was hilarious, forreal! Wilfred and Jaydee weren't there... I don't know why, though. So, it was Kenny, Dio, Mark, Jake, and some random guy that was used as a sub. We won 25-7! TALK ABOUT SCRRRAAAPED! They were pretty quiet on the court, too, for a team that talked so much shit about us today and yesterday. They had a 2-0 lead on us for the beginning, but that changed! :) I missed a serve, but I do nottttt care anymore, ahaha. After that, we just scrimmaged against other volleyball girl, Rex, and some people that we beat. After that, got dressed, went to my locker which was annoying me because everyone was walking so fucking slow in front of me, and I was about to be late! I was falling asleep, but I completed the group assignment, nontheless. A sub for forensics today, same Filipino-mother-type girl. I actually did my work because Trina was sleeping, and EJ and BJ weren't allowed to move seats to sit next to me. WEAK! Afterschool, hung out in the back hall for a teensy bit, went home to get money, went to UPS store to deliver a package, went to Safeway to food because my mommy said so... AND OMGOSH, THE GIRL/GUY... I DON'T KNOW LIKE A SHEMALE WAS RINGING ME UP HAD LIKE A BEARD/MUSTACHE BUT YOU COULD TELL SHE WAS A GIRL.. and I don't know, that was weird for me! LMAO. Anyways, after that, I went to Quickly WHEN IT FUCKIN STARTED HAILING. -___- Not cute. I saw Nancy! I bought the usual, which was taro milk tea with tapioca and crispy chicken, which hella isn't even finished right now, dude. There is no way in hell I can finish a whole bag in one sitting.. maybe like.. 3 if anything. Then I went home, got mad at Shadow for playing in the rain, and went to sleep. I feel like doing that now since my mom isn't home yet. Haha.

No homework really. I might get a headstart on my econ outline or something. KBYE!

NTS

-Call PATRIX
-Find my wallet, put money in it
-Get volleyball clothes ready
-Get gym clothes ready
-Go to Westlake, remember to bring UPS package with me

MUST!

Never was a rebel.

I did want to skip first period today because I was only midway into 1984, but of course, I went to school anyways. I never skipped school, ever! I honestly don't remember the last time I missed a whole day of school! I think it was sometime my freshman year because I was sick. I never had it in me to miss school for no legit reason. Haha, I'm a pussy when it comes to that, shut up! Nevertheless, the test was pretty easy, with the help of Eunice on the first page. Smells like a B, okay, MAYBE a C. I always hated tests where they expect me to remember which character said what. So, yay for not missing school for no reason, even though it was obvious that other people around me had the same mentality as I had. You should've seen the empty seats! Well, looking back on it, there weren't THAT many, but still.. there were a few! Now that we're done with 1984, I must say hello to Hamlet. I never really had a thing for Shakespeare, so I'm not so thrilled about reading the book. However, I heard there is a group project where we have to record a video with I guess some scene from the book? I don't know, but I do love projects like those, especially when you're with your greatest friends! I can already see it now. NO ONE IN THE CORNER OF GRANDFIELD'S HONORS ENGLISH GOT SWAGGA LIKE USSSSSSS! Haha, jk... kinda! =) Anyways, AP stats was okay. I need to practice the chapter in order to get the hang of things, and I should be good to go. Econ we didn't do work --surprise, surprise! I always get a good laugh out of that class, though, I must say. Ceramics was a waste of my life since Ms. Shegoian didn't fire my project. I spent most of the period conversing with the girls + Patrick and Harold, ahah. Lunch with Thr3mix and some of the Alliance that doesn't seem so aligned nowadays. Please tell me why these ridiculuous guys decided to play volleyball with a crumpled up binder paper wad that somehow got stuck under out nasty ass vending machines which terminated their stupid game, hahahahah! Psychology was boriiing. I no like talking-to-texts. I had a better time watching this one girl sleep in class, lmfao. You should know who that is... A sub in forensics today, so of course I'd affiliate myself with some of my favorite juniors for the whole duration of the period. What can I say? I love BJ, EJ, and Trina! We ended up talking about the weirdest things... and EJ, you really need to cut your hair! HAHA. Afterschool, talked with people for a bit. PLEASE TELL ME WHY TEAM 3 FOR VOLLEYBALL AT LUNCH IS ALREADY TALKING SHIT LIKE THEY'RE GONNA BEAT TEAM 1?! HAHA. I walked BJ to his locker, and Jake and Dio were already so damn confident about tomorrow's game against me and my girls. MY team has Sam, Anna, Janelle, Jessica, Istdel, and Dez --ALL VARS GIRLS. Jake's team consists of him, Dio, Jaydee, Kenny, Wilfred, and some other dude who I can't think of at the moment, LOL. Mannn, each one of them are sooooo cocky! So, my team's motto is "no mercy," and I really just want to play my hardest tomorrow, and beat them! I know if we don't, we'll get smack talk allllll the damn time! I ain't trynna have that! Haha... silly boys.... Anywhoos, afterschool, I talked to Juju and some people. I ended up going home with Eunice and Dillon, Harry, and Andy came to my house after going to In&Out. Just chilllllllled. New vocab: dingleberries, blue balls, queefing, and uhm.. others! Hahaha. I love them.

I LOVE MONDAYS!
-Secret Life of the American Teenager
-I Love Money 2
-For the Love of Ray J
-The City

3 and a half hours of utter goodness! I don't have much homework tonight, so I might get crackin' on that guest list of mine. Since I'm getting invitations soon, and sending them out in May.. I gotta! So much to do about this cotillion, on top of other stresses that, surprisingly, have nothing to do with school. My heart's stressed. This rain and wind is crazy, forreal. STOP NOW!

<3Lacsonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Nosebleeds!

Happy March!

I haven't blogged in weeks, I think. Hmmm, things are rather difficult at the moment with some things, but I won't get into that. I'm recovering and facing any consequences that I put myself up for. Either way, I'll make it, with or without a significant other. I never really liked deja vu...

Anyways, so I'm sure that babble didn't make much sense to you. I'll talk about something that should. Cotillions. I forgot to call my DJ to get that contract signed, again! I really should because he already gave me a discount, which is weird since he didn't give Eunice one, and he's hella good friends with her brother or something. I found the invitation I want! I need to order it as soon as I find out who's replacing David since he has a knee injury. -__- The price of invitations is so expensive that I can only invite 80 people x__x, while my parents invite the other 20. I thought 100 was too little at first, too! Whatever, I'll take what I can get. The other problem: the Philippines can't do the dresses for my court because they aren't equipped with the right "factors of production." --HAHAH, SO WORLD HISTORY SOUNDING. ANYWAYS! Haha. So, I'm always checking online sites for decently priced, yet cute, dresses. Tell me why it's so hard to find a white/off-white dress?! My mom says to wait awhile becuase spring is right around the corner, which will bring out the lighter-colored dresses. I hate waiting though just because there's that chance that if I wait too long, my court will have nothing to wear! There's so much to do, so much to spend money on. Erghh! Oh and since some of the guys broke the basketball court last practice, not only did I get hell for it, my parents have to pay $350 + labor whch is another $100. It totally sucks... which is why I was so mad at them the past week, but talking to them was so hard for me. They're my best friends. :( Basketball isn't to be played at my house anymore, even when the new one is put up, but I just felt bad that my parents had to pay so much money for something they had no fault in, and my dad's sadness for the past week or so without a basketball court, his pride and joy, was pretty killer. But anyways... for my court: My house, Saturday @ 1. PLEASE DO NOT BE LATE! I know I'm going to be doing a lot of review with everyone since there wasn't practice last week. The time might be revised depending on when Marjo is having her cotillion practices, so I'll be sure to follow up with everyone. We're trynna work around each other's cotillions because well duh, that's my fucking bbygurl(= I love her, and I want her to have a successful cotillion, and I'm always willing to help! =)

Hmm, school. Report cards came yesterday. My parents were happy. 4 A's, 2 B's, weighted 4.0. School's been okay. I'm surprised that I had such a high percent in econ, on the count of I failed one of the tests! Well, then again, his assignments are worth so many points that I could've failed five tests and have still gotten an A. I have a test on 1984 tomorrow, and I'm only halfway through the book. Hello, Sparknotes! I plan to do volleyball at lunch with a few of the vars girls such as Anna, Sam, Jessica, Janelle, Istdel, and Dez. I'll be libero, and playing most of the time since I'm more of a defensive player, I guess you can say. It should be fun just because it's with them, and hey, what's there not to love about being back into the volleyball game? :) Mr. Westmoor on Friday was worth my five dollars. There were so many people to root for like, Patrick, Harold, Leo, Josh, Immanuel, but nevertheless, congratulations to Jan Jerome! You did great! :)

Okay for some random tidbits.. I gave up chocolate for Lent, and I didn't think it's be this difficult for me! I also gave up potato chips, too, but I don't even find that so hard. I literally had like 5 nosebleeds in the past week. One woke my ass up, one was in fucking ceramics class which was gross because I had clay on my hands since I was in the middle of making my pun piggybank, and three times TODAY. Holy fuck. That really cannot be good, since I had to call 911 when I was younger since I woke up from a nosebleed that really NEVER STOPPED until the paramedics people came. I ended up coughing blood up, and uhm, waking hella neighbors up. x__x, sorry! Hopefully, my nose bleeds stop soon. If not, I'll have to tell my parents, and they're gonna send me to the hospital, asap, which is one of my least favorite places to go! UGH. Anyways, I think I'm going to paint my nails blue, the shade EJ Brauner hella likes becuase he's homo! =)

And I think that's about all I'm going to say as of now. I'm sure other stuff has happened in the span of the two weeks that I haven't blogged, but you know me, I tend to easily forget things. 'Til next time, kiddos.